Relief

I found some answers. I got access to the submissive wife project and feel much better. In my last post I was upset and venting. Ironically enough, it turns out some my not so submissive tendencies are actually characteristics of a submissive. DBH calls me a subbie. I am a brat. What can I say?

Realization hits, I like spankings. No, not the discipline kind. The kinky in bed kind. But I need the discipline kind. I need to know there is a constant in my life that is BDH.

We are entering into a period when he will he be more firm with me. I have no idea what this will be like. I can't say I think it is a bad idea. I just wish I had more of an idea of what was going to happen next.

erg, going to bed